How come nobody tells you it feels this way?? Because there's no way to describe it.

I knew that I would love being a Mom. When I saw kids hug there parents, or tug on their arm, I was that awkward person looking and smiling at them as I pictured my own child in the future doing the same to me. Now that Dominic is 4 months old, I can't fully describe how it feels to be a Mom and how much I love him. I never had this aha moment where my heart felt like it was going to burst with love the first time I saw him. The first time I saw him I was overwhelmed definitely with love, but also questions, new parent anxieties, etc.

It seems that as the anxieties wear off and I've gotten more comfortable in my role as a mother the more I've been able to bond with this amazing little man that I have. I don't really know when it happened exactly, but I have this unconditional, undying love that I can't describe for him. I've caught myself tearing up when he just smiles and giggles at me. Even when he takes a break from breastfeeding to babble to me I've caught myself getting tears in my eyes because its like he's whispering a story to me that nobody else understands. I get choked up seeing any kid or baby hurt on TV. And I have this need to protect Dominic at all costs. I would do absolutely anything to protect this little baby of mine even if it means giving up my own happiness, well-being or life. Every day I spend with Dominic I fall more and more in love with him and can't imagine my life without him. I dread the day that he's grown up and doesn't need me anymore, but am also so excited to interact with him and watch him grow and learn and see the man he becomes.